So sick of waiting .

This is how my life work . Perhaps , I can never have you , never , because both of

us are different , way too different . Well I going to name this person " 1'' who had

steal you away from me .Why wouldn't you understand " 1" acting and say love you

, but you already 1 was toying you , but why are you still continue to love 1 ? Stupid .

Can't see I am the one who you can love and hug forever ? I'll always stay with you

love you , on your side ? Why can't you break the reality and love me ? Why can't you

realise I am the one who love you more than myself ? Nevermind , our chance to get

into the same secondary school is 20% only , so I should face reality and stay away

from you ? From now onward , you live yours , I live mine , we are separate , I will

tried my very best to forget you , and work hard and get well in studies , cause I wanna

achieve my goal and dreams ! Today , I was worry about you , and I call you , but you

didn't seem to be please talking to me , and ignore me . I wanna tell you to be careful

when you are out . Since you doesn't think that I'm exist , so I decided to forget you ,

and change myself to become prettier let you regret , I'll get famous . You live your

own way , I will never care about you , or get love pain by you , BYEBYE ! It's gonna

be hard for me ... Talk is cheap , I know once you left footsteps in my heart ,

Maybe you called this love ?(All this NOT referring to J )

You know , I won't , then why wouldn't you quickly say you want me ?

I know you don't love me , I know I was dreaming , all I can be with you

was only can be in my dream . I dream about you, what about you ?

I love you , I call this love , I don't love other , just you . Why

it is so hard that I can't be with you ? Maybe we can only be

friends forever ? I miss you .

So sick of waiting for you ,

So sick of Love songs ...

Aww , I need a hug . Because Last Friday night , I lost my PSLE Cer ! I can't

find it , I search the whole house , why ? on Friday 10 pm I went to sleep , before I sleep

I remember my PSLE & form were in the file , and I put understand the letter to keep safe

However, I woke up on Saturday , i didn't see it anymore , I thought it was my mom who

keep it,so i didn't ask , soon on Sunday I want to keep it o my bag for Monday , it gone ! My

mom didn't keep it , and IT'S GONE! Who took it ? Or... I don't know, I got scolded by my

mom , she scold me , my sister scold me , she said that , I am useless , goodfornothing,

idiot , tumor . I got so hurt and angry after hearing that , however I shutup , My mom

said I am stupid and said i didn't take care well . I was so angry and innocent, what did

I do , it wasn't me , I wonder who , and how ? Today morning , 7.15 went to school with mom

then wait till 9 get a form and register ,but how about My PSLE Cer ? This is really a mystery

who ,when ,how ,why ? My mom even said I'm a stupid child that troublesome them , I

wonder , if I am stupid , how will I get express i PSLE ? I tired my best already , and choose

JWSS which I don't want just wanna let you happy , but I did so much in PSLE , I study and study

. But , you didn't compliment me at all , but scold me . My mom always compare me and

my sister, she said my sister can study and can go Collage , but I am lousy ad lazy .

I already tried so hard to be good and prove to you , why did you still did this to me ?

Am I a tumor ? Am I such a letdown ? Maybe I am ...

My love , we have choose different school , we may not go in the same 98% for sure .

But , I tried to forget you , I tried to hate you , I tired to erase you , but It's hard

The more I tried the more I remember you , I love you , but face reality , We

are from different world , I'm from Venus , you're from Mars .I'm so sorry , I love you

I can't forget you , I wonder how my secondary school life goes on , without you , I can't live .

Remember to find me , Remember to call me , I miss you , forever love you ,

I love you forever . But I have to let you go , goodbye , I can't be with you , REALITY .

I hate god .

First Choice : Jurong West Secondary School ( being force by mother, I dont want it ) (Express)
Second Choice : Juying ( Cause got my CCA & don't wanna dissapointed QianHui and being force by mother)(Express)
Third Choice : ShuQun ( EeLing )(Express)
Fourth Choice :
Firth Choice :
Sixth Choice :
To be continue my choice by today or tomorrow 11 am (latest)
By tomorrow , I'll be handing the form to school already . I don't know alot yet .
By tomorrow , I think I'll be telling you I love you . ( letter)
By tomorrow , go collect something .
By tomorrow : I felt nervous & worried .

It was another lie , that I can't hide

It is just bruised ? Don't ask me , cause I don't even know myself now . Maybe it was just

a greatest lie in life ? Or it is true ? I just hate you belong to another . Please be mine ? Why

is it so hard to be mine , and why can't you be mine . Make it the true love . Although , I knew

the reason , and the reality was just right infront of me , but I just ignore it , and I wanted

to be with you . Yesterday , was only outing till very long , maybe a day , I miss you like hell

, every second of that day , missdieyousomuch . SO, how can I continue to move on , and

study the indifferent Secondary school ? In fact I can't bear to leave you .Some reality can

be able to force to change , but most reality is reality , you have to face it or else die .I know

we can't be lover , we can only be closefriends . We can't felt in love , or else , this will make

your life hard . That why I'm here , going to study very hard , but I hope you can see how

strong I am , so please be mine . Pleaseeeeeeee ? I begdieyou .

Just you and me .

I'm sorry , sometimes I would get jealous because you belong to another . I want you all you .

The whole day , I was thinking about Secondary until headache . I chat with QianHui the

whole afternoon , we are choosing Secondary . First We decided go Juying together , but

Eeling came online , so I ask her what school she going, she reply Shuun and Yuhua . I was

thinking going to Shuqun , then I told I'm going to ShuQun , but she doesn't seem excited . But

I betray Qianhui , then Qianhui very sad , i try to apologise . Soon , Eeling still don't know which

to go . So , I decided to go Juying with Qianhui , because I shouldn't treat a person who willing

to go with me than a person who doesn't really care. But Qianhui already wanted to go JWSS with

Jazzeca , but no one accompany to Juying , so she decided to go with me , actually dislike Qianhui

to change alot of time , but she will try to persuaded her father to let her go Juying with me , despite

how her father scold her . She is such a nice friend , that make me sure that she may become my

Goodfriend . But If i go Juying , How about Ee Ling , I cannot leave her like that , but my mom doesn't

like ShuQun very much , and she said that her friend's son had been studying in ShuQun , but he said

ShuQun is kinda bad , that make my mum dislike me to go Shuqun , but how about EeLing ? I don't want

her to be alone . But I can't betray Qianhui . I'm also worry for Eeling 's safe . I also want go to the same

secondary school as Ee ling , but you know reality . Ee ling dosen't seem to be excited to go to the same

secondary as me , sad . But nevermind , I will try to go with you . Nothing gonna break our Friendship .

First Choice : Juying Secondary / Shu Qun Secondary . EeLing or Qianhui ?

Second choice : ShuQun secondary/ Juying secondary. EeLing or Qianhui ?

Third Choice : don't know , fourth : Huayi Secondary . Firth : Fuhua . Sixth : Pioneer / Jurong West ?

I'm sorry if my Jealousy had trouble you alot ,

Because I love you , and I don't want you to be another anymore .

Looking at your hurt with the breakup , break my heart , you just didn't realise

I am the one who there for you . You thought is another person .

But I just wanna tell you , no one can do better than my love for you.

You are mine , mine , mine forever .

It gonna be alright .

Hello ! Let me summaries what happened today . Actually , i already letters for Eeling

but since I didn't fail , I should keep this secret forever . This morning woke up , change

everything , then went downstairs to meet Szetong & Michelle , soon took MRT to

Eeling's house , then meet wait for Angela , play 48 while waiting , soon buy Bubble tea

take bus to school . Reached school , so nervous , wait for result . I was flabbergasted

I pass my PSLE with flying colors . Whoo ! Went to celebrate with EeLing, Zhangyan

, Michelle , Cherlimen . Then meet those bad idiots at JP . Soon , took 181 to idiot's

neighbourhood , play ice & freeze , and 48 . Then , I got a phone call from my mom .

Then i rushed back home , under the rain , actually , I was waiting for 193 bus.

But it waited very long already , but I had to rush home asap .So , I rushed home

under the rain , everyone got so curious and look at me , a the rain was heavy ,

pour on my head , soon , halfway through , my heart was freaking pain .

breathless , pain like something squeeze my heart , heartbroken ? I wanted to stop

but , it was late . In no time , I'm home , I'm was so wet like had been swimming ,

my uniform can see through , and my mouth turn white , my face turn red .

Like , I'm gonna die . I was sad to see some of them fail , but I hope they will work

harder . And you . I love you but I can't cause we going to have different fate ,

byebye my love pain . I told a lie , I can't leave you .

You're my heart breaker

Love is like a biggest mistake made by me .

I am so sick of love songs

Yesterday night , I cried alot , when brushing teeth , I cried . Went to bed ,

I cried more , sad songs playing in my head , memories of us came upon

my mind , heart pain damn damn pain . Heart attack of you again .

Yesterday , after came down the MRT , I rush home as quick as I can ,

halfway through , I don't know why , my chest and heart suddenly so

painful , that I fell on the floor , then rain pour down my head , so pain

that I cried , and I saw the time , i try to stand up , and rush home . Maybe ,

I got too much heartbroken of you that I got heartattack ? Touch wood .

Tomorrow is PSLE RESULT DAY ! Dead meat . I fail for sure , if I pass , human

can fly already . Goodbye .

I lie to tell you I'm fine .

Agree ? I do . Today was fun! Morning , bath already , went to Jurong Point , saw Angela & EeLing ,but didn't call them , I just stalk them , fun . Soon, we find ZhangYan , Zoey, QuiHong . Soon , we took 240 to some old building , then while waiting for bus , take photos .520 bus came , the bus driver kinda not very kind , soon we reached ,walk to bowling place , hot weather , luckily got zoey's umbrella . Soon , reached ,play bowling , videos photos . My plant drop , but put clip to clip it , Creative ? then we went to IMM . Eat lunch ,MacDonald . That guy who service us like **** . He spook so soft ,and doesn't seem to be pleased , he make me embarrass . Soon, eat finished , went to play water ! Fun , Zhang Yan& Ee ling kept pushing me , until I got wet ,but there are some younger boys play with us . Soon, Zoey ,QuiHong,EeLing play with us after the hesitation .Hehe , it was damn fun ! Went home,take MRT Back home , get scolded . Die larh , I lie to my mother . I am bad .Anyway , my plan actually works , but time ruin it . Be careful Pineapple !

I lie because of you .

I break promises because of you .

I lie to you , just to tell you I'm fine .

I lie to you , cause I don't want you to get hurt .

I'm so sorry, I couldn't take it anymore , I love you .

I hate lying .

Love pain , kill me .

Indeed . Don't , don't say you want me , when you don't really mean it . Don't play me .

You are just toying me uh ? You , my love pain . All I could say to you , how could you

do that ? No one can understand the Love pain inside my heart , only until I couldn't take

it anymore ,until my blood ooz out . Please don't go , you're my oxygen . Love torture ,

my heart attack , you are too scary , Doctor can't even cure . Sometimes , you will make me

pain, make me excited, make me disappointed . Friends help me Little , by making me

smile , I should eat more Heart attack's medicine (friends) , to control it . You make

me excited for awhile , make me disappointed later , you are so scary . Erasing you would

be like swallowing poison . I can't throw you away , can't erase you . I endure it hurahura .

My love pain . I try to burn away our memories , but I just can't . Why is a day without

you so hard ? Be mine please ? I can't take it anymore , I'm tired of waiting , my heart

hurt , when Love pain still filled my heart , too much of love pain , Overflowing love pain.

Today , stay at home , no mood . Tmr , depends .

Love pain , it kill .

Be yourself , everything go on .

Some people just had an illusion in themselves which make they , think they are ugly , actually they are beautiful . Be yourself , compliment yourself sometimes . That is why I called myself "pretty lady" . Anyway,

I am troubling something " Secondary school " My mom ask me to go Yuan Qin secondary school , but I DON'T WANT! The more she said , my consideration for Yuan Qin , decrease . I want to go to the same secondary school with Ee Ling . At first , I choose Paya Lebar MGS , get scolded , cause too far . Second I choose Jurong Sec School , get scolded not because (too near), but need to take Bus,and MRT ,troublesome . So , I am so scared to choose already . Then , i wait for the result first. I should stand for my right already . Choose my own secondary school . Don't care about my Mom's advice. (HARD) Actually , I'm bored to death already . Really . 4 more days left to death sentence (craning) or ( surprised) . I think if I fail , I need to go jail for a year and craning everyday . Actually, I am not afraid of craning ,it is the pride and the disappointment in my parent's eyes . The one more year 's money and I will be a letdown . I DON'T WANT TO FAIL AR !

According to you

Dearest Friends , Aliens .

Do you know why humans can be so unforgettable ? Cause , when you spent your

times with him/her . The MEMORIES kept inside your mind forever.

So, this is the last day , I may didn't spent my time with you . But I hope everyone

would stay stronger and smile more. I try to not forget everyone . Everyone

need to stay another path for life , but remember to collect some flower on your

path , and remember the amazing things happened to you .

The most I won't forget is my Best Friend (:

Everyone remember to LOL !

LOVE ME

Hello !

Just came back , eat my dinner , bath ,play computer. Just now , went to ITA 's house to

have lunch , but everyone seem to be unhappy .WHY! Soon, those idiots came , (I'm bad )

went to play with them , one of the idiot sick , (I'm bad) then , he have to rest , everyone

look so down and tired , cause playing , Zhang Yan is the most unhappy one .

After playing, Ice & freeze , 48 blind mices. I always become the catcher one .

Soon , idiots left (verybad ) we went up the playground and drink drinks , then we

went to play slide , we are very lame , but it is fun . YES ! Seriously. That's all for today.

Tomorrow will be better ! I wish you can understand my love (:

With sweet sweet Love (:

You ! make me falling in love with you moreee ! In first , I love you , now I love

you MORE! 100 % . Anyway , today , we graduation day party , so , I'm performing .

Others group performing very good , especially " Oh " Soon , at 12. 30 we have free buffet

, I wondering why they are so good ? HEHE . I'm telling everyone , I'm in stead with Ee Ling,

unbelievable ? SO , cannot ar ? HEHE . After the the lunch , we went to the hallway

and play for awhile , then we went to Icetube Auntie's house . Was very awesome .

Soon , time pass , it is already 5pm , everyone have to go . All of us was so happy , but

Some guys came and broke the atmosphere . (HATE THEM ) Then caught in the rain . But

Jin Yong & his mother shelter me . Thanks :) I really hope school will still continue ,

no holiday until the result day arrived , I am really worry for it . Left :9 days to result

Left : 3 days for school . Sad , i will really miss everyone ! Thanks guys for taking care of

me , and my emotions . With Love to everyone !

your truly ,

Pretty Girl :)

You just don't know .

Yeah , by chance ? Maybe I have to wait ? I'm waiting ever since I met you . I can be

sure you are my love , that is why god fate me to know you , but fate me not to be

with you . This is the saddest part in Life , you may not know that I love you . But I

really hope you do , but If I say , our friendship spoil , you'll be another person

already . So , I rather keep it in my heart than let you runaway . I love you .

Just now , came back from practice , saw a couple sitting on a bicycle , the girl

sit in front , the boy sit on the seat , using all his strenght to cycle , both of them look

skinny , but lovely . So sweet , I'm single , I wish I have one too , like you . I love you

Then , having dinner ,My mum , sister quarrel with me , Idiots . I don't know why

I love to say idiots , gonna quit this habit,anyway , they are to unreasonable :(

Making me so angry ! Anyway , tomorrow , I'm performing . Excited !

Love you .

I Love you and always do .

Hello . I almost had you , just left 1/4 , but someone ruined it . Idiots

Anyway , left 11 days to collect my PSLE result . I am so afraid I might stay back . I hope I won't , cause I had study very hard already . Anyway , Tomorrow , it is sport carnival , I am not feeling well, I'm afraid I couldn't play . But , nevermind . I'll try . I am looking forward to the Graduation day , so excited that I trip on my feet . HEHES . Now it is only 9.50in the morning , and I'm so bored . I decided to be a happy kid , not a sad one . Although , it is very hard , but I will try my best to smile , cause i don't know my lifespan ad I don't want peoples to worry and I want to bring happiness to the hole world . So , smile everyone .

There is something which I really dislike : We are fate to meet one another ,but we are not fate to be together . Why ?!

In this world , there are millions & millions of peoples , but among this peoples , You and I an get to know one another , isn't it a fate ?

I Love you (ily )

All I needed was you . Ysd , Green mart was terrible . It was tiring to

picking up the balls for the young ones to play. ( don't dirty-minded)

I think AB had become bad to worst , first . I went to play with my senior .

Then he ask " is that your sister ? " I said " No , she is my senior."

Then he said " who is she ? where are you going ? ''

then I only replied polite back to him " no , why must I tell you ?''

then he said in very stern and mean voice " No , You MUST " Then, I go so angry and

ignore him and walk away . Soon, he play with the bottles hit the table thinking himself

is a rocker and think he is very strong . I was so angry that i don't want to talk to him .

After Green Mart , went to practice dance . Went home . Sleep

There are words , I wanna tell you(Not AB) :

Do you know how much you mean to me ?

How much I could use my whole life to lovedie you?

I miss you , I love you and always will.

I wait and wait. Just to want to be will you . I'm jealous

when you said you fall in love with other but not me .

I would always cry , cause I love you damn damn much

Replay (:

Summer ! this morning , I woke up without breakfast, cause my mother forget to buy .

But , Never mind . eat medicine , went to school . Morning , I was hot and sweaty like hell

i don't know why , maybe weather or I sick ? Soon, Singing Singapura . I can't sing , oh , I

lost my voice. Soon , start, went to field , The coach teach us how to play fbe . Soon, there are

lots of insect biting us, we request to stop , oh , I fell , cause the grass are too wet and slippery .

my right leg ooz out a blood , and left a scar :( . Soon, Miss Lee came and we asked medicine from

her. She went to take and bring it here for us, everyone apply , and felt better. I think Doge ball

is the most fun one , soon went to play sorcerer . Hot weather ,my skin got so dark now ,need to

bring sunblock . After school , went to Izzah's house and practices ,they changed the dance steps

haiz , hope we can do better .Goodluck for me .

I have no ideal

Somehow , I wonder why humans being are created ? Some Humans are evil, some don't.

I always miss my childhood , holding my mummy's hand . She will lead me .Now I have grown up

She walk her side , I walk mine . Like , letting me to face problem on my own . Oh , yesterday night

I was sick , I don't know why ?? I was coughing in a sudden and running nose . My body felt so hot ,

I was perspiration , even thought the fan was just beside me. I couldn't sleep well , it is like in

the hell. Anyway , yesterday was a chaos . HEHE . He made me a jelly on Sunday , so he gave it to

me on Monday , I ate it and felt like vomit, i did vomit a little , I let my friends tried , they vomit too

The jelly was really bad , but in order not to break his heart , I ate finished , some of my friends

ask me not to eat it , cause maybe will cause stomach hurt , but I told them , " NVM , his sincerely made

this for me , i should eat finished " As, he had never made jelly for a girl before, and it is not common , guy

made jelly for girls , so I guess I am the first one for him. But , I don't know if I should accept him ?

Oh , after that , lots of problem starts . Sshh !

Just the way you are

Hey Ailens , Finally I free , I learn finished all the steps , I took 2 days , it was

tiring and hard . I don't like my members attitude , they keep on changing after I learned

finished it,they didn't tell me, Luckily, i ask from them , then they pefer to mixed songs,but

I tell them i don't want, cause I finished all the steps by myself, and I have to teach them . I felt

so unfair , all the moves I learn by myself , and they don't even help me . Sad because of this .

Anyway , no one can stop me again , I must fight for my right ! Teehee . Oh , just now , Ee Ling

told me something , actually,I knew it already , but I still have to face reality . So, i don't care

,since he play me , I play him . MUHAHA ( EVIL) . Awaiting for tomorrow, cause AB will

make me moved to tears , i guess so. TEE-HEE

Just the way you are .

Scroll down !

Boring , waiting for my sister and mummy . Dying*

Guess where am I ? Japan? I'm in Singapore,look like I'm in Japan ?

What are you looking at ? (waiting for my sister)

my dinner,Baked Rice with cheese and Fish fillet at 'xin wan"

Jealous ? Strawberry Ice-cream & Strawberry Pudding !

Yummy , Goodbye (:

Never want you anymore .

Hello ! Today went to watch Pinocchio at Singapore Theater . The show was

awesome .On the bus, Owen,Cherliene and I play Uno , making me feel like vomiting

We saw 4 superstars from channel 8 , they went to watch it too.

At the half of the show, the pupils thought someone cry . In fact , it is not.

I felt so disgusted of that"person" I think it is the dumbest thing he ever done.

He face kept on so sulking , like wanted people's attention , and like blaming her ,

for making him cry. Oh please! Anyways, today was awesome . Yeah !

About the dancing , I guess we are half way through, Haiz . I think others

groups were better . But I'm gonna try my best (:

Good Luck for me .The things you did , make me hate you lots .

Smile is so bright .

Hey Humans ! I'm happy today cause , she and him broke already . Completely . Mission Completely ! Save (; Anyway, today was awesome . Yes , my feet is aching after dancing.

At English Class, Everyone is busy painting those materials . I think Shi Zheng is the pooriest guy . From morning till 1.00 pm , he kept on cleaning the floor , wash the brush and bottle for us . Hahas , I helped him too . Oh, at 9.30 , Xingwei was very bored , playing with brushes. So, looking at him so bored, I suggest him to paint my hand , soon he smile . He quickly stared . He look so excited and happy that can make you happy too . Soon, James saw it and join in, they were playing with paint on my hand that make me look so blues and avatar ! Izzatul also got his palm black cause he is doing his work , We got a Hi-5 . Hahas .

So colourful. i got a blue ink on my face , and I didn't realise it . Miss Siah and Friends saw it and laughed at me . HAHAS. Today was too Awesome . I loved today .

You've got a smile that could light up this whole town (:

Hate You .

Damn It ! This is what the feeling is . Yesterday was Awesome ,today is the same .

Today ,went to West Grove Primary School ( not really that awesome ) But, until it is

Math class at 2pm , I went to computer with Miss Lee and few Students to print things

for green mart . After that,went back . Saw Shi Zheng with his group members and other

friends helping them , I join in . When we are painting , we got excited and start using

green paint to paint one another , I got the hands green! so do everybody. they used Jazzeca's

Handphone to take photos . Soon, while doing , Shi Zheng said " the paint on our skins, still can

use,don't waste money " Then he use brush to take the paint on my skin then paint it on bottle .

HAH . That was so funny . Everyone LOL . Soon,went home . I feel like so angry today , because

of him . YES, seriously . Do what he did ? Damn him , I kept disagree with him the whole day

I damn damn hate him . But, after those action , I felt happy and abit sadness . Arh! just relax

forget him, girl . I have to stop someone before it is too late .