Friendship?

you always said you never let anyone to break our friendship,
you always said that this is such a good fate that you can be my best friends
you always said Friendship is the most important to you,
you always said you never forget me,I cannot forget you
you always wrote my name on your very first place in those memories books.
you promise you never forget me,or break our friendship.
I keep every single promise,& I do everything for you.
For your happiness: I gave up my happiness& gave him to you,I lie to my parents,just to accompany you to let you smile
I cut my waist,just to accompany you to get scolded.For your safety,I protect you& accompany you home together until you reached doorsteps
while other friends went to play.
I tried to hold every single tears,to smile in front of you.
I help you in Studies,yet others drag you to play.
Now because of that stupid boy you forget me.He drag you to play,he don't do all those things for you which I did.
I spent 55 min to find your things in stones& sandy place,while you play.He 's here, I ask him to find for you,he ignore and went to play.
I get dirty,I don't mind,you smile,I smile.
You totally forget me,you put me in number 8 lower than him & friends,I used to be first,now is seem not.
you forget our friendship,you apologise is no used,cause your heart don't seem to tell me so.
What happened to you,you changed so much,you always talk about him.
I left no more friends,you are only the one of my dearest friend.
when I fell in love,I didn't forget you,you are still the first!
Now,you put me to 8.I'm hurt,yet no one cares,no even you,when I'm sad,you blame me,you still chat with friends
This is the friendship you gave me?