Smile , till it hurts .
Oh, hello. Something happened to me just now, and i learn how to be stronger. I don't want to say what happened,
because im like an attention seeker. But I really don't like it when people treat me like a trash, i really hate it.
I know, im not good enough, i wasn't interesting to be with. Whenever you're with a friend, and she suddenly
get excited when she saw other friend, don't you hate that feeling ? I always had that feeling . Making people
awkward and have no conversation. It's all because I'm not good enough, sorry friends. I'm jealous, how other
friend able to make my friend to smile , when I just can't. Just a little action from them, and that particular
friend gets all the attention. I don't like it, i admit I'm not good enough , so I can't compare . I always wanted to
have a friend that won't get bored because i'm a boring person. Yes, i do have. But i think they find me boring.
That's okay, im not blaming them, im blaming myself for not good enough and make them smile. Usually " left
out " is because you're not popular, ugly, attitude sucks, not close, boring, you're a rubbish . And friends
will left you out , i guess ? Im not saying my friends treat me badly, they are good. I just feel like I'm not good
enough for them. Im not gonna waste any more time on any shit . I'm gonna study , walk to right track . You only
live once, and time won't wait for you, you need to fight on your own .
You can chose to be two type of person - Let me explain .
Be the " Trust no one, love no one "
Advantage :
Yes, trust no one , love no one . You can chose not to trust anyone , not to love anyone , not to
care anyone . You won't get hurt or sad . You can be yourself, not judge by anyone . You won't
be having burden or sadness . You may not have any lover to break your heart and run away .
You're alone , to fight for anything without any care . You will have your own world without anyone
to disturb .
Disadvantage :
You will get bored in life , you will be all alone , you have no one to talk to . You might think of suicide
because you're too lonely. You have no one to share memories with, no one to care for you . Nobody
will help you , when you're in danger . No one to eat with, no one to play with, no one to chat with.
You're all alone .
Be the " One among the rest "
Advantage :
You have friends , family , lovers . You will get love and care from other . You will have people smiling
at you . You meet new people , and make friends . You have people that you can share your problems
and needs . You can make memories with your beloved ones, and be happy with them. You will face the
world with the people you loved .
Disadvantage :
You will see fake people , fake friends that hurt you so much . You will get hurt from your lover if
you're the unlucky one , and might think of suicide . You have many burden and stress to cope with.
You will face many problems and hurt from people that who judge you or hate you . You will be judge
, and this world might scare you. People will start using you, taking you as an advantage , and continue
to hurt you .
- Done -
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