Hi , i care . Remember that, i always care .

I love you too much that i forget all about myself. 

Hey .

What the fuck is wrong with me ? Im sick, coughing non-stop, sneezing non-stop . Currently, having a high fever.

I went to see doctor just now, and the worst thing is I didn't take care of myself . This morning, i was perfectly fine.

Until i was taking a chinese composition test, that i keep on making those irritating noise.Then, went back to class

and lend tissues from Yiting, gonna return her on monday. LOL . After school, had mac for lunch . And i regretted 

cause im fucking having a serious soar throat . I told my mother to call Miss Anne that i can't go for cca. It's was

suppose to be happy, but I dont seem to feel it ._. After that , stay at coey's house for 2 hour ? Watching movies.

I went home earlier, and take a bathe and slept for 2 hours. Probarly , im too tired these few days worrying about

Chermin's birthday. Touched mah , Ah tan ? Muhaha . Okay , i seriously dumb , i went to eat durain despite my 

illness . Stupid right ? Anyway , byebye ! :D

To Chermin :

Hello Dearest Chermin Tan, Wtf . Hello, thanks for the wonderful memories. Thanks for giving me a chance to be your

friend. Remember how we always laughed together, fight together? Almost all the time, we always guailan one another, 
which make me wonder why you always so fierce to me. But after hearing what you said " Because we're close ". My 
heart goes Aww. Wtf ._. It's your 14th birthday, finally old enough to be like me. Always say i'm old because my birthday 
is the earliest. But i maybe old, but my heart is always young k! Oh , im really happy that you like the surprise from us 
and the presents ! Your blog was really touching. (: Although, we're always fight and annoy one another, but i truly love 
you ! Ew, i feel so disgusting. Time flies, we might not be in same class next year with the rest. But , I still hope you 
can learn to be strong and posiiive in your life, even if i'm/ we not around. You must move on, and continue to smile . 
Don't hurt yourself ever again , because we truly care for you. (: But then, happy birthday lor . Im jealous you have 
so many friends to care for you, and love you, and im one of them ! bhb .

Ok, saranghaeyooo ! 

Forever alone .

Nowplaying - Secondhand Serenade - Fall for you .

Oh hello. I hate my pimples on my face, it pop out so suddenly today. Fuck , so i watch my face well , and put toner.

Sound so girly -_- . I felt so tired , so tired , so tired today. I think im gonna sick soon, im already sick since 

yesterday, and still go for cca. Now, my whole so jelly , and currently having a fever & cough. I feel dying . lol .

We went to science center for crime lab just now . Although it's was quite quite fun, but boring . Then , went

to Jurong point slacking for awhile . It's really tiring for me, I almost fall asleep in the bus ._. Okay , I seriously

gonna study really hard next week. But it's always fail, pekcek . Ohh , I forget to mention ! We went to help 

Sijie pick her present for her boyfriend ! Aww , so sweet right ? Sweet couples always make me jealous so much.

It's always make me wanna to have someone to love me, care for me, and always with me. Probably , im too ugly

, fat and short to suit for anyone . Be it friend or boyfriend . * Emotional * LOL , okay whatever .

Gonna goooo , byebye ! 

 Teeheeeeeee .

Noob + Lame ._____________.

Okay, HAPPY RACIAL HARMONY DAY ! 

I bet your face was like " Wtf " . Actually, i wanted to put 2E3 class photo, but i look so so so cui. Ok, whatever .

Most people wear malay costume bah. I feel that i grew uglier and uglier day by day . LOL . * Negative * .

I kinda don't know what to write anymore ._. So whatever , don't tease on other races, make friends 

with them . (: SMILE SMILE SMILE SMILE SMILE . :> BYE .

LOL

#Now playing - After School - Shampoo .

Hello hello . I had a great time today in class, LOL . During math lesson, my partner was Yiting, so I keep on 

disiao her until she very pekcek . LOLOL . Sijie , Yiting and me were all singing , then suddenly we talked different

languages. SO SO SO SO FUNNY . I was really touched when Yiting post on her twitter " Sitting with my best friend
 @Real_Lihtyng ! " It's really great when people treat you as their best friend , this show how important you are 
. So nothing much , after that is Lin Liam theen's class . Fuck , so so so boring ._. Malissa is a great

friend, she lend me her costume , and insisted me to wear ._. So , after school went to Chermin's house with friends

, then we all tried wearing it . We look like some typical malay aunties going for wedding . LOL . All of us laughed 

until like siao . Okay . Byebyebyebeebeeyeeyeyebebebyey (: 

Basically , i have a bitch in my class . It's so unlucky to have her last year and this year . She make people unhappy,

make people friendship broken , and quarrel among one another . Eh Bitch, don't think you're the prettiest ok , i had enough

of  you since last year. You steal away all my friends , and always act big infront of  people. Small things happen , and you cry?

What ? Attention seeker ? If you ever make my friends sad again , i make sure I go to your face and slap you . I swear to

god , i'll do that until you have the real tears . Always say you being left out ? Seriously , thanks to you . I was once hurt

by you . You ruin my everything, my friends . Now , i have much more friends than you . Fantastic right ?

If you really want a true friend , be nice to her/him . Be nice to people , and people will be nice to you .

Please change, bitch .

Fake_Lihtyng

Staring at her own reflection, what does she see? A girl who has failed. A girl who has failed her family, 

her friends, but most importantly — herself. She’s been too caught up with things she shouldn’t even be 

worrying about. She’s completely forgotten what her real priorities are, what really matters. 

Tears race down her cheeks as she realizes who she has now become,

 only hoping that everything would fall back into place.

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" You people have no brain , do something that has common sense , people dance with brain not brainless "

That's what my teacher said to me, i was like wtf. Okay, i no brain, what you gonna do ? Kill me? I give

her my attitude through out the whole lesson, and keep staring at her. LOL Not only me okay, most

of my friends did as well. LOL . I mean i dont scared of her cause she's fierce, i just hate her anyway. 

Btw, Nowdays, people seem to hate me alot , i dont know why either. People are just ignoring me alot, alot.

People trying to avoid me. I know, i know . Im weird and crazy , ugly , fat and short. It's alright, im 

disgusted by myself too, i hate myself. No matter how hard i tried, im still fail . I dont know what's wrong

with me. I feel like people are leaving me, i just too sensitive, i think. Fuck, why am I so sensitive, what's

the fuck is wrong with me. Why i can't be the old me? Fuck, fuck, fuck . 

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Im damn disgusting , ew . 

I hate today.

Ok , i hate today .

So this morning , i was bringing my usual fake smile to school. It's like almost everyday already.

So I can't bring myself to smile, because I feel like i'm being left out by my friends, I mean they

dont mean it, and they dont know . I wont blame them anyway , it's not their fault . It's mine .

 Probably, im just too annoying and ugly anyway . I mean i'm always the one who put

in effort to be happy and not to show my true side . Like, it aint easy. It's really hard to make 

other people smile , end up you will tired yourself. I just dont get it, why isn't there anyone 

who can  truly care about me for once ? Just once . I'm tired of being the one who went around

cheering people up, and entertain them as much as i can. That's because i truly care about my

friends, and i really love them, all of them. But I jealous of how other people manage to find a

boyfriend/girlfriend who care for them, or a good friend to be with them. I hate myself for 

being a dumb clown, hate myself like this. I wanna be like the rest, who nearly to perfect.

Why why why why why ? I've been asking for years. It's amazing how you can smile falsely

infront of people , and they actually believe you. Okay , i hate being myself , im ugly , 

im stupid, im dumb, im short, im fat, im annoying, im a shit, im a failure, im all fucked up.

Sometimes , i feel like giving up everything .