Heyy , morning , Yawn . Just woke up , and going to have breakfast .

Heard that , tonight have Countdown at Boonlay , maybe I'll be going.

Depends , my parents mood lorh , anyways , it is going to start school

within 3 days , OMG . I haven't even cut my hair yet , nor pack my bag yet

, shit larh , first day of school , need to be check by the __ master . But I

don't why to cut leh . Hm , actually , I still dreamt about you , I still cry for

you , and badly still want you , although I have said , I gave up on relationship

, I lie . I want you damn badly . You are still the brighter ,no one can replaced

, I want you .

There's a dream , I been chasing for , to be reality .

Can't get over it .

Today , was a freaking weird day . Today , woke up , damn early , to

upgrade myself as soon as possible , because school is gonna re-open , and

I don't even bother looking forward , I wasted my holiday , and I regret , or maybe

going to new school , I'm scared . Anyway , today , I spent my time Worthy . Afternoon

Eric online , I chat with him ,so , i told him to cheerup , and very polite to talk with him .

However , he ask me if I want to be GF , he told me he was serious , however , he said

of course , I didn't agree him , because I don't want to have a relationship on my youth

, I want a good career first , until I'm 20 . " he was kidding "at the very last minute .

I'm scared of being old . Another playboy , he told me , he love two girls at

once , and I found out who he love . Then , I don't care and continue my own thing , today ,

wasn't alot of common people online , why ? I want to apologized to Angela , hope you reading

Soon , I am sick , I don't know why . Oh , I won't be online and post anymore regularly , from

6 jan to my O level , finished . Because I must study hard . So , these day will be the last time .

Sorry , I'll miss you guys . I must quickly leave that JWSS SOON ! MUHAHA . Hope to

have friends in JWSS , soon . Die inside .

Actually , I still miss you and love you , I want you , I can't get over it , I love you :(

Your hopeless poster ,

Lihtyng .

Baby , I 'm crazy all over .

You're eyes , Your smile , Your laugh .

Baby , you're just my miracle , and you are the

heart that pump the blood which keep me dam alive .

You already melt my heart , but you can't stop it .

I couldn't take it anymore , I want you , my miracles .

(...)

A simple fate , you never excepted .

This phrase was so meaningful , so I posted since I left no picture .

Anyway , this afternoon 1.30 pm . Go out with my mother , we walk

around at JP , then went to eat dessert . Soon , we went to a Jeans shop

to purchase my jean , however , I have chosen the color , but don't have

the color of skinny jean . Then my right down eyelid , jump , so I ask my mom

what will happened , she told me in sciencetift , later I will get nervous

and excited . First , I don't believe , then we went to FairPrice , my mom

brought a lot of vegetables . However , my mom need to go over other side to choose

Green vege . Then I was left alone taking care of the basket , feeling bored . Then ,

I was thinking , I will be meeting Ee ling somewhere at JP . Somehow , something

caught my eyes , and I don't know why , I just turned my head to right , and saw

Eeling with her mom , I got so nervous and excited , then I believe it is true .

Awesome . They came closer , but didn't saw me ,then I touch Ee ling , she then

greet me . We are so shyshy , and awkward . OMG , fate ?! Soon , they left , we left .

Then , dinner go , Kuofo and eat . Raining days , so we went to CD shop to buy CD .

However , I wanted to buy Ghost movie , my mom let , she just afraid I scared . So

nevermind , didn't buy , but buy others . Then , wait for rain to stop , went home . At 9 pm ,

while watching TV , lighting and thunder struck , suddenly , the TV no programme ,

got scolded by my mom , WHY ?! WTH ?! ANYHOW SCOLD ME , YOU THINK I CREATE LIGHTING ?

Merry CHristmas . Got to go . Bye !

Merry Christmas Earth !

Although today , I'm not going to celebrate , because I don't know how .

Anyway , later go out to buy New year cloth for myself , pay by my mom .

I ind of looking forward to Secondary school life , but I'm scared . Mostly I miss my friends .We gonna have camp soon . Anyway , woke up early to see if there are snow came down from the sky . Stupid me , just believe it . But , although , no snow , but the weather quite cold . How I wish Singapore have snow . Envy people from other country have snow . I think I'm not gonna play facebook , blog , games in the computer anymore since 6 Jan . Because 4 and 5 , no need study first . I not going to play anymore , I wanna concert on my studies . Most important , since god gave me a chance to go Express , I must cherished it . I wanna get out of JWSS as soon as possible , hate that school . After which , I choose JC instead Poly . Of course , must work hard to go JC =.='' . Take 2 years better than 3 years . I think nothing to said already .

Ended here . Goodbyes ! ~

I gonna suffer in JWSS for 4 years . Damn , super regret .

If fate change again , I would fight for it this time , I will never choose that

school . Anyway this morning woke up at 8 , went to JWSS , to buy books and

uniform , the instruction didn't put properly , and the words are so small , I blind

huh ? Then the books was freaking heavy , want my life . Then went to purchase

School uniform , after which purchase THEIR SHOES ANS SOCKS . OMG , What kind of

school is that ? Why can't I buy from outside , and their fashion taste is super low .

IF pupils wear those kind of uniform , they should let us wear better shoes . I was

angry , and the school like jail . I'm gonna die and suffer inside .Came home , pack

. Quarrel with my mom , because of that school . Stay at home , do nothing , stare at

the wall . Plan for future with Potato .Do nothing , nothing and nothing . Go for new

haircut for overall (whole hair) , miss my hair alot , said goodbye to my hair . Finished

So many school in this Jurong area , why must choose JWSS ?

Drop dead alive Owner .

Hate that school , gonna die inside .

Sad life :(

Just came back from the new school . I can immediately tell you I don't want

to go again .Firstly , my mom and I had breakfast , then I saw Cheryl and Szetong

with their moms . After finished breakfast , went to that school .Firstly , I saw

Sheryl and Jazzeca .Soon , the teachers ask us to sit in order . No one is in the same

class with me ! Qian hui go Express 4 . I went Express 3 . Jazzeca and Kenny went

Express 2 . The students from other primary school look so unfriendly and fierce

and impolite . I feel like killing THEM! I WANNA TRANSFER SCHOOL . BUT MY
MOTHER DON"T LET ! The teachers didn't smile at all , all so Sukey faces .Like the whole

world own their money . If wasn't my mom force me to go that school . I WILL NEVER

PUT THAT SCHOOL IN MY OPTION FORM AT ALL . Because my parents forced me .

Soon , my mom accompany me until 9 , she have to go for work . Then every child

went to meet their parents , while I go home my self . Alone . :( But, I cannot

be so childish , I should learn independent . Sometime being alone and left out , sucks.

SO , No choice , reality . I miss my friends alot .

Used to be so known in CPS , Now seem to be so unknown in Secondary . Sad life .

Life is so unfair .

Goodbye

This photography took beautiful .
Anyway , I just had my lunch and sidling there with my chair (wheel) . So funnn
. The advantages are no need to walk , and enjoy the fun . The disadvantage is gain
weight and fat . Anyway , this holiday , I had been gained 2kg , damn it . Gonna
Exercise at 4 . I have been watching video at YouTube lately , because got nothing to
do already . But , I have to work hard , for my dreams . If not , I'll be lack .
Sometimes , once you missed something , and couldn't get it back . Let it be , stop
forcing yourself . Since it gone , forever gone .
I know it hurt , but I won't be weak , and shed one more tear .

Fearless

Today , was a curiosity day .

Today , It was busy for me , I'm happy with myself . Morning , woke up , on computer .

Chat with Friends , and do something more meaningful than yesterday . I already

change to normal girl .I already forget about the past , and I don't love you anymore.

I wanna spent my time well instead crying over a spill milk . I wanna spent more of

my time with friends already , because when I was downcast and mood less ,and didn't

online . My friends miss me so much . From that I knew , I learned a lesson , and treasure

someone who want me instead of someone who doesn't . So , I have plan my future .

By 23, 24 . I have to have a boyfriend . By 26 , get marry . 28 or 30 give birth . OR I stay

single till 30 , because I wanna stay with my friends more and enjoy my Youth .

So , Friends , I'm coming ! Stay with friends more .Enjoy my youth .

Chirstmas is upon .

Santa , most children believe in Santa , because that was their hope . when I was younger

I believe too . I remember when I was 6 , and I going to be 7 and need to go school . On 24 dec ,

My mother brought me a bag and place it in the living room at midnight . On 25 dec , I woke

up and saw it . Foolish me , freaking elated me , and my Mom told me it was Santa clause

came to our house and gave it to me . During my age , I believe her . Now , I know how silly I

am . Last night was terriable , I couldn't sleep at all . Now I'm tired . Sorry for not posting

this few days , because I don't have mood .I have been hoping that Santa clause can gain my

wishes . Just three wishes ! Pleaseeeeeeeeeee . Lord , gain it for me ? I remeber when I was

younger age . I remember while I was watching Television , suddenly I saw a SHOOTING

STAR , shoot across the sky , it was so clear because it was only outside my window on the sky

. I quickly wish for wishes but didn't gained :( . The next day , the news was on . Althought

it didn't gain , but it was my lifetime to see a shooting star . Maybe I talk too much about

myself . Sorry . Because My childhood is better than now .I miss my childhood .

It is all my mistake .

It is my mistake to love you , my mistake to kiss you , my mistake to be your friend ,my

mistake to love you . In the first place , I know I never have your love , but can't we be friend?

You didn't even care I'm alive or die . You don't even give me a call, when I am not online.

What about me ? I'm a fool when you are out , I call you to check . I just like a fool who care

you , when a fool got tricked by you .

I don't want to see you anymore , leave my world . YOU MONSTER !

I will never forgive and forget of what you did to me . I'll stay strong to take revenge .

These day I didn't post more , because Computer spoil , but it get well . Yesterday night

I was damn sick , in the middle of midnight , sudden cough ,and I was coughing badly

and nose block , what happening ? My inner body was so hot , heat everway . I going

crazy . After that My mom bring me medicine to eat , felt better . Morning must drink

water .But now I got nothing to said anymore , because I got nothing to said .Anyway,

My birthday was on 18/2/ . So , it should be coming .That day , My mom said she want

to buy me a handphone for Present . Then I choose already , but don't know it is expensive

Hope not . Thanks Mom . This Christmas I'm gonna celebrate at Air-condition hawk centre

.___. Instead of turkey , we eat Korean Food , But nevermind the foods are still good .

Tomorrow , I'm gonna accompany my mother to supermarket near my Ex-school .

Go so far with mother , actually I don't want go , but I wanna buy the material and make

Sushi and Korean food , I wanna learn . I will also plan to take revenge , you DIE !

I already deleted your photo on my picture . No more you , I don't love you , I hate you.

But I still love you :( Why can't the love go away ? Actually I don't even dare to hurt you

because I don't want to see you cry . But I have no choice , YOU DIE !

Don't happy to earlier , I'll be back !

~~~~~~~~~~~~

From now on , you all can call me pimple girl ~

That is because during this holiday , I don't know why , my pimple grow . I have three

pimple , My face look sucks .XD Anyway ,this morning wake up , saw only egg and

white bread for breakfast._. I wanna tell my mom , you daughter grow thinner .Feel her

No larh . After eating go play computer , lunch eat fried rice XD . After play video games

Lame me , got nothing to do , then go wash face , so clean , so fresh . Went to play laptop .

Check news from website . Do yoga later . Learn Dancing later . Shower , Dinner at 7 .

Watch TV , sleep ._. Boring life . So many freedom , but don't know how to do . Because my life

sucks :P Joking . Hope my pimples go away. Hope Summer , please be better . I think in

secondary , My face will cover with pimples like tomato . Because alot of sweating thing

need to do .I must take care of my skin . I wanna buy Enzo Ferrari , when I grow up. So Cool

I wanna rock your life , baby !

True love is can't be seen , can't be sell . Only by feeling . (:

So , you may seen I'm happy ? actually , my hear was not . I was acting

infront of everyone , I lie to myself , why must I act infront of you when you are the one who is the main person that hurt me ? Maybe I don't want you to worry ,I don't want you shed any tears , I want you to stay happy and find your own happiness , but I really hope I can have a chance to have you , just once . This morning wake up , eat Maggie noodles for breakfast , lunch , eat Maggie noodles again until I crazy . Because I was only , and no more food left .SO eat Maggie , I think my hair going to drop soon , so many salt . I play games and play computer all at home . I promise myself tomorrow , I wanna break the boredom , I'll be at home , doing something , and use time wisely . Just now watch a Television programme about a girl who born to be helpless , the family having a sad life . I felt sorry , and lucky to have a nice place . I really must not take thing for granted , you can have beautiful hairstyle and nice cloths , but for some unfortunately for her . I should be happy with things I have . Anyway , I gonna forget you . This is serious and real , I never want you anymore , get out of my life , I forget you , once I'm in secondary , don't find me , an don't call me . I'll forget you ,You forget me .

I just notice , our nearby got a molester , everyone should be careful .

But I miss you , but forget us .

Life is simple , make it intestine .

I'll be there , only for you

How could break my heart ? So , you still didn't realise , there always someone waiting

for you , That me ( thick-skinned) Nevermind , as long as you love me XD . Today

morning , woke up , have breakfast and play computer , I got a nightmares with a middle

-age man , kinda 50+ chasing me with Knife , when after school . Scary , the previous night

I dream about my dad chasing me , i think he going to steal something from me, or rape me ?

because I was with my uniform , with button open . Scarier , I think I had gone crazy because

without you . Ohmy , I got a pimple on my face , very pain . This day wasn't go , because my life

sucks and crazy without you . I'll be there for you even thought I trying to forget you and

erase you away , but it is too hard . Please be safe . I'm going to miss you mad , because

we are not in the same school . I'll be there for you only . But I know , you will never fall in love

with me because of that reason , which terrible me like hell . You are always my precious

gold in my heart . But , I gonna tell you how I felt on 22nd Dec . Watch me , I'm nervous .

Damn Damn nervous for you . Because after I told you , your attitude will be very different

to me , our friendship spoil . I lose a friend like you . Because you are scared and will ignore me

for sure 100% . But I couldn't take it anymore , I tired of wasting time and tired of waiting .

My feeling gotta say to you . You can don't accept me , but please continue be my friend :(

I know this is wrong , this is a fact , I couldn't be with you. But you are the one , I never

dare to let you go . Next life , If i could , I going to take you away with me .

I ever will not let go of you .

Today I had done something , that I'm gonna regret it for Life ...
I had quit The Food Group from facebook . I wanna join back the group, but the facebook say once you quit any group , you cannot join back again anymore. I was flabbergasted . I shouldn't quit it . The story goes like this , at evening , I was chatting with friends in foods group , then all os sudden , no one chat , so I decided to spam , so that they will chat back again . But Ee Ling said she is going to quit the group because she said " some ppl spaming " I was wondering , so you are calling me " some ppl ? " mean I am worthlessly in you ? In anger , I told her , you don't have to quit, I should be the one who quit . SO I leave the group , however I couldn't join back . I regret it damn damn much . I really hope I can join it back . Now , I miss the times when all foods chatting with one another :(

Your Poster who wanting to go back to Food Group,

Lihtyng

Baby , you are like a Lightning !

Lightning ! When I was young , I am afraid of thunder and Lightning.I would always

call my mother who is at work .Cause I was always left alone at home , since I was 7 . Those

days was scary . Till now ,only sometimes , when it is very loud ,I would be scared , but I

wouldn't call my mom anymore , because I already grown up , and I would get scared not

because of the sound , but being left home alone . So , finding someone like you , is impossible

cause Lightning struck me , once I touches .Now , maybe you may find I am not the Lihtyng

whom used to be ,I may changed , maybe some of you know only . Anyway , I going to learn

dances soon , to take part in one competition . I don't know why , I think I love Korean Bands

nowdays , I'm crazy . I felt so lonely nowdays , all I do was face computer . Like I'm wasting

my precious time away . How I hope time could rewind , If I could , I wouldn't ever let you go.

Baby , I wanna grow old with you , helping you to count white hairs . I want to be the one who

sleep beside you . I want to be the one who make you lauughed . Let me

This Quote familiar ? Maybe few of you knew it . Hereinyourarms by Hellogoodbye .

Well , today was weird . Because I just told a big secret to Potato . That secret was my

life biggest mistake , and that secret had only been know by my ownself , no one know

it , until I think I should tell Angela because she is the one would can keep secret strongly .

And I want some advice from her too , that secret was hidden , until today . Because I had

enough of this secret , it controlling my life and took my soul away , it making me insane

so I decided to blur it out , feeling better , cause after the secret beening told , I don't really

worry about you already , because I tried to felt in love with a star by his charm , but

I know this is only last few days , Few days later , I love you again , because the love from

you was too strong to erase , in fact I was still thinking of you , you are my heart attack ,

But, I promise myself to be a better person , I'll get famous , I'll get prettier , I don't want

peoples to look down on me , I want to shine , shine my world up . I don't want my life

without you so hard , this is my life , I should control it well by myself , not you . However,

I don't even know myself , I don't even dare to say I love you . I don't know one year later

how would you become , living good or bad ? I'm living day by day without you around ,

I can't even focus on things , my mind was missing you . Without you, is like

waiting for years and years to pass by . First day meeting you , I felt in love with you

so suddenly , love at first sight ? till now , I can't stop loving you . Love is complicated .

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