Hello December, please be nice to me and make my wishes come true .

Hello Everybody! So good to see you again, happily smiling , waiting for Christmas.

Well , times flies really really fast! This December, i have to buy books, competition,

auditions, slim down, grow tall. LOTS OF THING TO DO! Ohmy, i really scared i can't

grow any taller. I REALLY NEED TO GROW, LIKE SERIOUSLY. I don't want to be that

short. By the way, December is one of my favourite month ! I don't know, just by reading

the word " December " it makes me feel happy. Oh, i'm going Izzah's house later for some

music cases. Then after that, going orchard . :D My house phone currently spolied .

So , message me then. Hmmmmmm.. ( Okay , i know it's awkward because i have nothing

to talk about anymore ) BYE FRIENDS ! :D

This guy is way tooooooo hottttttttttttttttt ! <3
That american guy so hot man . AGREE ? I found this picture at tumblr , and his looks
attracted me to use this picture . Haha , Sorry too much of hot guys now days . I cannot
stand it . By the way , CHRISTMAS IS COMING ! YAY ! HOW AWESOME PEOPLE ? What
do you want for Christmas ? Of course , i want my dream to come true & i want a fitted
cap for present so damn badly . :( Fitted cap is the cap that guy wearing it ! On top !
No clear ? Try google search , It's a hip hop style cap ! I WANT I WANT ! How i hope
somebody can actually give me this for present . I would love that person until nobody
can snatch . I WANT :( LOL , nevermind . By the way ," Fitted Cap " fit well with couples ,
Hm , dirty minded . :P Anyway ,how's everyone doing ? Good ? For me , actually , i am
not good at all . I have alot of things to worry & do , and i worried i can't do well . :( First,
i have Dance competition and i partner a chiobu & tall senior , i felt so small & out when
standing beside her . LOL ._. Today , i think i might be packing my books & exercise to
slim down of course ._. Anyway , there's also one thing i most afraid of , MY HEIGHT .
I really , extremely scared i can't reach 160cm . :( Being short , is killing me . PLEASE
, i WANT GROW TALL & SLIM DOWN . :( If i can't grow tall anymore , IF UH . I think
i gonna kill myself or go for plastic surgery to put those fake metal bar inside my
bone so that it can increase my height . BUT GONNA PAIN LIKE DON'T KNOW WHAT.
I don't know , but i feel like going for plastic surgery . :P I'M JOKING ! I don't know,
depends my en-duration & money & environment . See me in 5 year times ! When i
reach 18 , i want to have slim body & tall ! I'm gonna be like those Miss Universal .
Hahah , i must work hard , of course . :D Okay , that's all . :D

NomNom , Gummy worms ! Colourful yummy earth worms .

Hello ~ Everyone ! Well , i just finished one of my competition & many more

to go . Wth , i already hate competition , i mean i love performances , is just that

i don't want to be witht the seniors , it's really hard for me to talk , act . Seriously

, everything . I have to be a very poliet in my talking & action , have to help them

even if you don't want to & topic you know , you can't even join their groups( Like,

a group by a group . Girl's friends together , guy's friend together . ) Those kind ,

they will be like why you so extra . I felt very stress & tough to work with them .

I still remember once , i was so new in the performance as it's was the first time

, so i made alot of mistake & the choreographer scolded alot , and ask the whole

group to redo . I heard someone from the back said " stupid sia , like that also

cannot get it correct " then , alot of sighing here & there . I almost cry man .

I love dance , but i hate the CCA . Well , you won't understand how i felt , i can't

joke around with them , they were like all so serious .Sorry , talk to much , i just

want to let out my feeling man . Okay , nevermind , so the MAMA ( Mnet Aisa

Music Award ) held in SINGAPORE THIS YEAR . I WAS LIKE OMG , and the

worst thing is , i cannot goooooo . NO MONEY = NO TICKET = NO AWARD =

NO IDOLS . Nevermind lorh , next life . When i rich first , okay ? Bless me ,

people . May God Bless MEEEEEEEEEEE .

Superman's sweet - Ability to gain power , protein , energy & refresh of mind .

HOW AWESOME , IF I HAD THOSE SWEET MAN . Well , hello everyone ! I'm here

again , appearing on your computer screen to annoy you . Yes , you , don't have

to turn , it's you , YOU ! Joking , i am here to annoy you with my words . Yeah :D

Anyway , i have a competition this Saturday . Gosh , i think i really going crazy

for this competition because i got alot of scolding & i cannot do well , i almost cried

after i get scolding . Okay , after dancing training , i get injuries " Blueblack &

scratches & my muscle pain like don't know what " I really want to do well , but

my choreographer always said i didn't put in effort . I felt so fucked up every

dance lesson , not become of scolding because those seniors , i felt very werid

together with them like totally different world of people & no friends over there

. Man , it's been very hard for me . Anyway , this week , very bored . Training &

no time & no money to go out ._. Maybe ,next year ? I go bugis AGAIN YAY !

Eeling also jio me to watch 23:59 , thinking about it , make me scared ._.

I love scary movie , but just don't dare to watch . :p Never mind , i need to be brave

. Okay luh , goodbye !

Hello . How's everyone doing ? Well for me , Yeah, I'm just tired. (T)orn apart, (I)nsecure, (R)eally faking a smile,

(E)xtremely sad, (D)rowning in my tears. I realized everything happened for it's reason and ,

i being tired has it's reason on it . Okay the puppy onto very , extemely cute right ? I always

wanted a small puppy as a pet , but my mother disallow . Once i had a hamster , it's was

the cutest thing in my life , but as day passes , i become really lazy and have not fed him

or help him change the cage . But , of course i realized it and fed him , but lazy to change it

cage . So , it became very smelly ,my mother wanted to throw it away . However , i felt

so guilty and decided to let it free instead of throwing it away . Thinking about it now ,

i wonder how's my hamster " HamHam " been . I really , really ,really miss him . I felt

so gulity at the times , and hate myself for treating it so badly . Oh , and once i was

younger abit , i had a tortoise as my pet . It's was kinda long time ago , i remember that

he was sick and no appetite to eat any food , so he passed away , i cried for one day . HOW

CRUEL ! Of course , i cried for my hamster and tortoise . Thinking about it now , i don't

dare to have any pets because i'm afraid that i'm might cause them to die or whatever .

Okay , anyway , how's everyone been ? Awesome uh , hope so . Tomorrow , have CCA

and i don't feel like going , like seriously . FML , byebye

I guess that's why what saying goodbye is always like - like jumping off an edge . The worst part

is making the choice to do it . Once you're in the air , there's nothing you can do but let go .

Hello , this is how i felt right now . Well , i think i already in the sky half way dying soon.

Nowdays , lots of unhappy stuff are blocking my way . I'm really going crazy . I really don't

know what to do , i failed in friendship . I caused my bestfriend to cry , all my fault . To see

us serprate , it's scare me . But to see us carry on like this , it's scare me more . I really

don't know what to do , really , really . I swear it's hurt and it's making wanna cry .

I thought i can live better without you , but in fact i am nothing you , and how much i

missed you . My heart cannot be hidden- it's getting bigger- it hurts . Everyday , there's

fear & i am so sick of it . It's hard for me to live my life , and live your life . IT"S HARD .

Ahh , i don't want go CCA , it's boring there , no friends to talk with , still have to suffer

under the seniors .I swear i really hate my life ,really , really , really . Why must i born ,

why must i have to be the lucky one ?

Goodbye .

11/11/11 <3

Hello ! Today is a very , extremely , important day ! It's 11/11/11 ! Once you missed today

you never gonna have it anymore until the next 100 year later ! See , how important today !

11/11/11 is for you to make wish , dreams , everything ! For you to find your lover , make your

dream , do something for your love one , anything ! Well , the timing can be 11.11am , 1.11pm

11.11pm , 1.11am . As long as there 11111111 , you can wish for yourself , family , friends ,

dreams , anything you want ! Well , they said once you wish on 11/11/11 your dream will

come true . Well , i don't know if it real ._. But , this the only hope for everything . :D

i wished in the morning but missed in the afternoon , but i have 11.11pm ! One more chance

to wish alot of you want , mostly important ! I really hope they come true ! Okay , so bye

bye ! Remember to wish for today ! Me too ! I'll be wishing !

Today is 11/11/11 i want something amazing to happen today !

Bless me god , once 11.11pm struck i'll be talking to with you . Bless me , love you god .

The sea is the prefect place for you & me .
Hello . How are you people ? Well , sorry for the previous post , i was totally moody and
feel freak out , that's why . Well , i wasn't really good mood nowdays and should i say
i am really unhappy , yes i am sad . I dislike November , i thought November
would be a good month for me . In fact , it's same as the rest of the month , things just
doesn't go right for me . Everything seem so fast for me to accept & walk with it . I felt
guilty , i didn't donate the money to an poor lady that i saw in bugis ._. At that time , i
really had no coin & was rushing , there's alot of people pushing by the way ._. So, i was
kind of regretted . But nevermind , next time . So , okayokay i just push all my problem
aside and live with it , face reality . Well , i had tuition because my mother wants to .
So , i was like wth ?! i already so stress still have tuition , so nevermind just go with it .
BEAR WITH IT , LIHTYNG . Okay , tomorrow is class outing , i kinda happy yet abit of
worried . BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO WEAR ?! i really don't know ._. And , i'm
afraid it's not going to be fun with 4o people around going take mrt together & at the beach
._. Alright , let's skip the topic . Well , this week is the worst week i had . I didn't finished
my mission but making everyone smile , in fact i am the one who cause people to be sad
. I don't know , i cried alot since yesterday . I really unhappy with myself , i keep on
blaming myself & why things doesn't go right ? Everything seem so up & down .
*sigh* I really don't know what to do , what to do ?
Okay , bye .

MY MOOD .

Bugis street !

HELLO PEEPS ! I'm back from Bugis Street with my crazy friends ! It's was awesome ,

we were laughing all the way , and of course , we went shops by shops . It was tiring

though , but was fun . So , first we went to Bugis street for shirts , pants & shoes . :D

Then , walk here & walk ther , aftert that , finally , we went to a shop that the auntie

is super friendly , we even chat with her , i brought my pant from her , then she give

student price , then they brought alot too . Then , after that went back to MRT to travel

to Ikea , it's was very fun . Waiting for MRT & Bus . Then reach Ikea , saw sofa then

sit down . Until so embarrassing , too tired , then act like we were the owner fo the home .

Laugh like mad , then went to Ikea the cafeteria . Whitney go resevered for sit , Lichin

& me go line up , it's alot of people . The aunties were very rude & no manner , we are

costumer , yet think we are kids , don't serve us with good attitude , but when American

step in , they became so polite . Wth right ? So look down on us . Then , eat together , the

food was very nice ! American style , spell me alot of money in whole trip , i'm going

bankrupt . Then , went home . LOL , eneded . But , it was very fun ! Hope to have lots

of this kind of outing , shopping & eating good stuff together , sharing food . Okay .

That's all . Byebye ! :D

The sun is shinning , the birds are singing , the street is full of life . What a wonderful morning !

Oh , Hello there ! My friends ! Such a wonderful Day today ! The cold breeze blew toward my

skin . I love morning , yeah . There's no burning sun , but cold air , street is full of life !

Breathing through the fresh air , it's a good day to walk :D I love night & morning just dislike

afternoon :( Anyway , so yeah , Monday going out with Lichin to bugis to buy my pant .

I cannot wait , to meet her ! LOL . By the way , Thursday there's class outing , how awesome !

Xinrui is back from Korea by that time , she promise to give me present from MADE IN KOREA.

HOW AWESOME?! Ohyeah , nowdays , i living so positively , because i believe Life is full

of hope & love ! People , cheer up , life is so short & only once in a lifetime , and time

is precious , cannot be living sad everyday right ? Well , sometimes , i did cry and get so

emotional , but after awhile , i will be alright , i just forgive & forget and live beautiful .

This is how we should live ! But , the most i hate is CCA ._. I really don't want go for cca

because my teacher very fierce & there's no friends there . All of them are seniors , i always

sit alone and daze . What a sad life right ? I only able to get crazy when 1E3'11 is around !

Oh , i'll going to 2E3 next year , i think so , if i am not wrong . Well , sometimes i don't

understand why people want to stead so desperately at this age . Well , i have stead three

times before , but i realized i so stupid , i don't even know what is love or i really love him

and go for stead . When , sometimes , i admit i'm jealous of couples on the street being so

happy together . But , in fact , being single now is good , enjoying my life & youth and

at this age is good times to catch dream , being so ambition . :D Agree ? Yeah , byebye !

Currently listen : Bigbang - Let me hear your voice .

Believe that this is a human's hand ?

Well , i got shocked when i saw this photo while i'm browsing thought those

African photos , one by one , i felt so guilty about what i have . I was so lucky

to born in Singapore & live so healthy . Yet i still complain & get stress & unhappy

about this life . Have you ever think that your mother 's food not nice , and wanted

to eat other else ? Do you ever feel that school are stupid ? Do you ever feel that city

life are too stress and want to die ? Do you ever think of dying to solve problems ?

Well , i did , and i felt so stupid of myself for commit suicide & i decided to live positive

in life , and be happy with my own life , because we only have once in a life time .

We can't be possibly bringing sad face & be sad everyday right ? We still have to move

on in life and face the reality & be lucky to have this kind of good life . Sometimes ,

i just think that people are funny . They don't cherished how much they worth , and

being unhappy all the times . And life is like this , move on . Look at other countries .

I just don't understand , why world so cruel ? Those poor people

are also humans yet why are they suffering the life ? In pain , being kill if get

too much people in the village , no money , no food , no proper environment for

studying , no proper clothes , no proper family like us . That's really call , pain & stress .

And that's a story : A photographer went to their country to photo those picture

, so one day , he saw a child almost dieing because of hunger , then beside him , there's

a bird waiting for him to die & eat him up . So , the photographer took the picture ,

and he kill himself . You know why ? That photographer got so stress & sad about

their environment until he cannot take it , and kill himself , because it's too cruel to

the people over their . It's really really sad . Imagine their live , so i promise myself

when i'm grow up or rich . I swear i am so going there to help , i will do my best for them

provide them everything if i can . I SWEAR , GOD . BLESS THEM . I am going to help

the world , even if i can't , i will still try my best . THIS IS ONE OF MY TARGET .

Maybe , i'm gonna help the old folk's home or children or animals SPCA during

my holidays ? :D I really want to help them . May god bless me & them .

Ukiss 's Kevin & Kiseop .

The photo nice right ? Can't believe it's KPOP ? Same as me , i thought this photo was

from tumblr that some random guys took it . However , i didn't realized it's UKISS until

someone the owner wrote Kevin & Kiseop . The two guy are my favourite in Ukiss . I kind

of moody today . Because , morning , went very early for Dance . However , i was sweating

because the sun was burning & and the dance room haven't open . Nowdays , i very tan

, i did it on purpose , because i want grow tall ! They said , sun give out vitamin D which

help to grow abit . I don't if it real , don't go tan yourself , cause i'm not sure . I regretted

for tanning myself , didn't grow tall , yet tan my skin darker already . SAD LIFE . So ,

i was like , nevermind . Okay , enough of myself . Okay so , after that , i went for dance ,

yes it was so AWKWARD that i don't know who to turn to . I was so quiet throughout . Then

, there's a part , where i have change my position , but one of my senior accidentally went to

my position and cause me to confuse , in the end , i was late for the dance step , my

choreographer scolded me , and said " Lihtyng , if you don't get your step right , i will ask

someone to replace you uh " in a very mean voice . I was so shocked , and caught in the middle

, i didn't do anything wrong , yet scold me . :( So , i was moody all the way home . This even

worse , stay at home , no lunch and i was so hungry . Even though , there's biscuit in kitchen

, i don't dare go , because i have a phobia in ghost at the kitchen . So , i was stone with my ladtop

all the way , my mum came back . How sad right ? Today , wasn't a good day for me , all

my friends are busy , no one free with me ._. Except Sijie , she said she want come my house

but i told her , i don't even dare move . *Sigh * I'm used to it . It's my fear , don't worry

for me . Okay , i think i talked alot . PEACE (Y)

November , behave oh !

Hello EVERYBODY ! TO DAY IS 1/11/11 ! Wow , so one day . Teehee , how's everybody ?

Well , i'm fine , not really fine by the well , LOL . Anyway , I really hope November be a

really good month , i have alot of things to do , and really hope everything goes well as i

planned . I really scared of up coming competitions , auditions , slim down - plan . I haven't

start yet , i promise i start tomorrow okay ? Because , everytime , when i reach the stadium

, there's alot of people , until i very awkward to jog there & everytime , i run , my bang always

be centre parting make me feel so unglam . ._. I reall y dislike , how i hope , there's only me

in the stadium . WOW , GOOD :D Try luh , if can , i'll be jogging tmr in the evening instead

of morning ._. Oh , next week , go buy pants & shirts with my crazy friends at bugis . Also

, climb the mountain with my crazy friends + swimming with them & clas outing ! YEAH

I MISS MY CLASSMATES SO MUCH , THAT ALMOST EVERYDAY GO OUT WITH THEM :D

Oh , Xinrui going to korea this Thursday , aww , so envy of her . SO GOOD :D I miss her at

the same time , she promise to buy stuff from korea and give it to me , how sweet !

Well , Ethel help me find a baggy pants to give me , cause i need it asap . How sweet

of her ! SHE SO NICE TO ME , I LOVE HER YA . I miss 1E3'11 so much , seriously .

I like how we always eat lasksa every recess , we share food , share drink , with our

saliva . They took care of me like big sisters , even thought i'm older ._.

I'm really thankful & thank god to have good sisters like them . Although , we

might not be able to same class with each other , i just hope everyone be happy !

NOVEMBER FIGHTING ! :D